You are so upset by your own actions
own them
You are so destroyed by what you have done to him
you owned him
You are so, so sure you can never get him back
beg him
You are so hard and tough and yet you crumble in front of the world
they own you
You cannot even get out of bed
he owns you
Become better that every one of your sins
he will beg, to be
once again, owned by you
i know.
I am on my knees.
I never knew loving me
could have cost you so much
and I can never pay you back
not even in apologies
All i ever wanted
was a clean shot at your soul
Of all the horrible things this city has done to me
You were the softest of them all
I bite my nails more in Toronto
Subconscious S&M
Facebook still hasn’t deleted
Us.
I spent the better part of today
bathing in your sun
The moon was half
but my heart was full
Last night i cancelled on dinner
and your movements today
i feel like i cancelled love
I sit here at the present alone
like all the others before
I am looking over poems
I wrote in similar company, many years ago
There is a difference in my being now
A shift in my words
I am lightly older
And can appreciate the beauty
In the youth i had
As i look back over words
I see now
That i had something to say
And tonight i am lighter
As i have foretold my past
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