zebrasindenver

i long for new words

to stop using the word love

you should leave for a while

then return

to see if you are still here

as if you had stayed in my heart

it is so cold outside;
that my car will not start
that the snow is not soft, not pillowy, not fun
that i cannot see
that my heart is melting

i don’t even know how to feel now

 knowing that love has not left me

not hiding should come first

and not hurting next

just allowing

the wolf stalks the streets
carrying blades in its mouth
there is no way to leave him behind
he will be in your house tonight
waiting in your bed
to take a bite of your flesh
and give you nothing but hurtful love
the only way he knows

i have given away so much evil in my days

that i am now willing to look for better

for you

being me

becoming better than i can be

beautiful and other worldly

this snowstorm of love

falling on a city of me

can you remember when

i loved you

can you remember when

i wished i could have left

i cannot

i wish you would let me in

so i could hate you

i wish i didn’t love you

but its friday

im drunk

and its late